A consistent aroma of distortion
The many spices of forever
Evolve our consciousness
Bend our conception
All reasoning
Fluid
Trim all hatred.
Glorify and motivate
Amplify and devote
To all the waves we whiff
And all the flames we inhale.
Breathlessly obscure,
Silently vague.
Stuttering our cause,
Mumbling our defiance
Trapped in a tender hold
Worshipped without grace
Prepare for the end
Caress our wordless goodbye
Not often do I do the dance,
of self-preservation.
Rarely don’t I do the tango,
of self-reflection.
Keep up with expectations,
stay low with realizations.
Move along the tracks
of deep dejection
profound woefulness
and rooted sorrow.
My melancholy and mortification
tenders the trench
of my intoxication.
Words out of place
nothing but grace.
Walked away,
head held high.
Still, see you sway,
to us you simplify,
all of this disgrace
within your embrace.
Words are the only escape,
Knees are weak
Uniquely neurotic
Bounce to and from
The novel feel of fresh
Keep moving,
My anemic attention
Wavers toward the abyss
Since I don’t want to waste
what little time I have borrowed
grow your horns and dig deeper,
there is nothing here for you anymore.
bore your talons in another’s flesh
mine now is impenetrable
from thoughts of you long gone.
We could have drank it straight;
chased it with whiskey;
and seen the floor from a new perspective.
but now your scent lingers,
and your voice whispers,
My heart was ripped long ago
you now only have my soul
to rip from my body.
Now you assume
I’m here to maintain sanity.
I will make you cry
The way I cried for you
I will bleed your blood
The way I bled for you
I will breathe your breath
The way you kept me breathing.
I have been held up in this place
For far too long
Let me out
To the air-filled world.
I’m leaving
For the gum in my hair
Is much better company
Than the whispers I hear.
I am sorry; for every moment replayed, every sign never seen, every day of uncertainty, every tear that has dropped, every puddle made, and the aftermath. Thank you; For every kiss, so unattainable. Every word uttered, so unpredictable. Every touch, so incredible.
You knew from the beginning
This wasn’t going to last
You were just there for entertainment
Until you wanted to move on
Until you found someone better.
I must be mistaken
You were my best.
You helped me realize that maybe life is too short
To do what you do.
You took my heart and snapped it in two,
It’s not the first time either,
You do it to too many.
Thought they could change you
But I thought I could love you…
And I did.
Splintered walls,
only time has
past its barriers.
But truth,
It isn’t about you,
or I
Feeling the rush of emotions,
I need to know.
Counting days,
Beyond what is.
Anticipating a positive
Fearing nothing
Beyond me.
Each starts with the mere thought of you;
word by word, line by line.
Each begins with the hope of always;
dream by dream, idea by idea.
Each appears with the expectation of now;
sound by sound, tone by tone.
Each creates with the need of forever;
colour by colour, hue by hue.
Lost within
a never ending loop,
of this and that
of yes and no.
Gone within
an always ending
of rejection,
elimination.
Each ends with the mere thought of you,
slipping by too quickly to catch.
Each ceases the hope of always,
stumbling down too slow to watch.
Each delayed with the expectation of now,
spilling my insides out.
Each destroyed with the need of forever,
splashing my rejection and admiration,
into the sea of my exile.
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